A day in the life of Sammy...

Happy MLKJR Day!

2012-01-18T01:13:00.003-07:00

Some of my guy friends put on a "Black" party in celebration for MLKJR day. It was so classic. We ate fried chicken, watched the help, drank koolaid, and jammed out to R&B music. I know that we might have taken it a step too far.. but we just love black people! Best thing ever was when Brennan arrived and everyone was getting pictures with him and worshiping him! I love random themed parties and I love having classic friends!

If you are in need of a good laugh..

2012-01-18T00:51:00.003-07:00

let me tell you bout' my best friends

2012-01-05T17:39:00.010-07:00

Have I ever mentioned that I have the most amazing friend group in the whole entire world? Because I DO.
It is honestly so rare to find a group of girls like these. They are all so incredibly talented, nice, smart, beautiful girls. I have had so much fun with them. And they have all been here for me through the good times and the bad.

I do not know how we all got so lucky. We are all so close, but at the same time we all have different friends and we are always welcoming to the new friends that each other come across. We are always encouraging each other to try their hardest, and to be the best that they can be. It is so good to know that when I am having a bad day or something that I can call up anyone of them and they would be wherever I needed them to be, doing whatever I needed them to do, within minutes!

It is not very much longer that we are all going to be together and close like this. The group has already started changing and growing. But once we all start getting married, our daily play dates are going to turn into monthly.. which will then turn into yearly.

Although we have already planned out our futures, Buy a big chunk of land, turn it into our little neighborhood, where each one of us will build our own little custom mansions and all of our cute kids will play together, which did I mention they will all be the same age, gender, personalities? Some will be different gender.. forexample: My little blonde hair blue eyed son is going to marry Cierras amazingly beautiful dark haired, tan skinned daughter! And we will all become "The Real Housewives Of Utah County." Butas much fun as that sounds, my friends are smarter than you think.. and we are all well aware that our dream sounds like a fairy tale.

so in reality, you can probably find
Cierra living on top of the hill in a huge mansion with herlittle dogs, and her cute brown husband. Paloma touring eastern Europe with her mom, dad, and husband.

Emilee at fashion week in NYC. Jessie doing service.. in Uganda. and Kristen will still be in Orem, Utah baking cookies for the new neighbors. So even though we will be spread out throughout the world we pinky promised we would make it a priority to have a girls trip once a year.

Baby Ciewwa: My honey, my babes, my little baby daddy. I love our drives when we talk and talk and talk and talk. Cierra was honestly my biggest rock this past summer. She has defiantly seen me at my worst. We really have bonded through hard times and I do not think she will ever know how much she has helped me. I want the best for this girl. And if any boy messes with that he will have to mess with me!

Jessie jess jess: This girl never ceases to amaze me. Besides her rockin bod, her halarious sense of humor, and a laugh that can lighten anyones mood..She is an honor student with goals and ambitions that nobody can stand in the way of. Jessie has a talent to give advice to people that will help them for the rest of their lives. She has surley made and impact on mine. I love this girl more than she knows and it is always a good day when she is there! I love you jess!

Emishee! : Emilee.. well I could go on for hours about this girl.. so I am going to try and make it short. Emilee brings a lot to our group, she has recently moved to LA to persue her dream as a fashion designer and when we all get together without her comments are always made like: "If em were here she would say this.. or remember that one time em didn't know what this meant?" she isn't the smartest bulb in the tanning bed but she sure is the brightest! Em is always there.. I don't think that she has ever missed an event that we have had. EVER. We love our em!

PEEJIIEE WEEJJIEE: Paloma Martinez is the mexican we wish we had in our group.. although she has the gorgeous california girl look going for her.. it always fun to talk about her with randoms and pretend that we have an awesome diversity in our group. Paloma always makes every thing funner than it should be, sometimes she will just have these random scream attacks of excitement. That I don't think any classic night would be the same without. She is our little planner and always comes up with fun things to for us to do. She is always down for anything and makes it better than anyone could hope for. I love my PJ sometimes I just need a little PJ in my life. She makes our world go round!

Krissy!: Kristen is our cute little red headed mother.. every group needs one of those right? Kristen is always hosting gatherings, parties, events, anything imaginable! And you bet she is always prepared with home made goodies and things for us to do. She is our go to girl.. if you feel sick, have a stain on your shirt, hungry, or if you just need a good joke. You turn to kris. I think that she laughs more at her self than we do.. which makes her funny. She is also probably the sweetest, nicest person you will ever meet. Always putting others before herself. I look up to kristen in so many ways, and I hope to someday be half the women she is! I love you Kris!

Stephy: Aww my little stephy. You can count on Steph for saying the darnest things. Pretty much if Steph is talking, we are all laughing. Steph is going to make the cutest mom and wifey ever! I do not think I have ever heard a bad word come out of her mouth and she always does what she is told. I am sitting here trying to find more ways to describe her but she is just indescribeable! When we all meet up the first person I wanna hug is steph I dunno why I just get real excited cause she is just my steph! She is always so chill and makes dull moments entertaining.

Shay: I think that the best way to describe Shayli is..The whole package. She is Gorgeous, smart, funny, and such a good person. I have especially gotten close with Shay this past summer. She was so helpful and inspiring to me. She up lifts us all with just her example. She finds humor out of the littlest things and is not hard to please. She is always making sure everyone is okay and doing good. She keeps us all happy and brings a certain spirit to our group. I do not know what we would do without her!

I am seriously so blessed . Thank you for all that you guys have done for me. You guys have helped me through the hardest time in my life. Don't mess with any of us girls.. cause you will have to deal with ALL of us. I love you guys!

New Year, New Me.

2012-01-03T12:15:00.003-07:00

2011 was probably the hardest year of my life. So much happened. 2011 forced me to grow up, forced me to give up some of the people in my life that I care about, I lost a lot, but I gained even more. Sometimes it takes messing up to realize how to do things right. I am here by labeling 2011 as a Trial Run. Every single thing about this past year I am not proud of, and it does not represent who I am. 2012 is going to be the year where I figure myself out. No boys, No drama, No failure, No bad choices. When I was driving to meet up with all of the girls I started getting emotional, it was so weird. For some reason making it to the end of this year felt like almost an accomplishment. I got a sweet text from Cameron at midnight just thanking me for everything from this year, and even though things aren't the way we want them, that he still cares. It meant a lot to me especially coming into this year with a heavy heart. We had been through so much this past year, and I am glad to close that book and to start the next chapter of my life and make this year my year.

New Year Resolutions 2012

- Put others beofore myself.

-Do good in school.

-Be a better example.

-Get in my ideal shape.

-Get My patriarticle blessing.

-Be smarter with money.

-Buy a car.

-Put forth more effort into my relationships with my family.

-Do something everyday to feel the spirit.

-Repent, Become worthy, and stay worthy.

-Be honest in every thing I do.

-Do things that are out of my comfort zone.

-Wherever I am, be there. ( Not be on my phone as much)

-Become an amazing runner.

-Be positive!

New Years 2012

2012-01-03T12:05:00.005-07:00

This year for New Years me and all of the girls went out to dinner at pizza factory and then the the UVU new years eve dance. Which was super lame. For people who think its fun to make out with some trashy girl in a group of 4,000 plus people... good luck to ya. After that we went and has a big slumber party at my house, played games a girl talked! I love all of my friends:)

Christmas 2011

2012-01-02T13:04:00.002-07:00

This Christmas was so good! I loved having quality family time. Christmas eve is always the usual. My mom made THE best meal I think she has ever made. We opened pajamas, played card games and the kids watched 127 hours.. I know such a good happy christimas movie. This year I wanted to get good investments as gifts so there was not a lot to play with on christmas day. We went over and spent the day with grams, played lots of games with the kids and ate LOTS of food! We ended the night with a Packer victory! Perfect way to end the best christmas!

My Cute dad got me Lady A tickets! So excited!

2 YEARS

2011-12-26T00:49:00.007-07:00

10 Things that you can do in 2 years:

Get your assosiates degree

Have three babies

Pee 857 times

Raise an infant to a todler

Age up twice

Sleep 6320 hours

Eat 8 spiders in your sleep

Blink 8400000 times

Serve a full time mission

One thing I did in the last two years was make a best friend out of this lovley girl.

Chelsey Mowen.

Feel free to reminise our friendship here:

http://www.sammywarner44.blogspot.com/2011/12/best-2-years.html

http://www.sammywarner44.blogspot.com/2010/12/1-year-baby.html

Some people think that it is a bit "Lesbiany" to be the phsyco besties that we are.. but times have been tough. So when they are good, they are the best so we have to milk it for all that it is worth. As hard as the last 2 years has been. A lot of good has come from it. Chelsey has helped me through more than anyone ever has and she is my greatest idol. Luckily.. she doubles as a best friend. Lucky me!

This year Chelsey was up at College for our actual anniversary so we waited until she came home for christmas to celebrate. We went to rumbi, saw new years eve, got hot chocolate, went for a drive to see the lights, had our first sleepover EVER, made crafts and yummy treats. Did I mention that we stayed in bed until 5:00 pm the next day watching worthless movies on netflix? Time flies when you are with your classic best friend thats for dang sure!

Here is to another year best friend!

Turtlenog

2011-12-26T00:38:00.004-07:00

Some of my guy friends have a classic Turtlenog party every year.. where everyone wears turtle necks and we drink egg nog. I know super clever. It was so fun! Taylor was snapping pictures all night and we were all so classy class.

After we went and spent the night up in midway. Which was well, definatly a night to remember.

Mistletoe Party

2011-12-19T17:49:00.004-07:00

Saturday night Kristen threw a " Mistletoe Party" We had to dress in our Christmas Best and so everyone was all dressed up. My freinds took the more cute route.. I took the more festive route. We did a white elephant, watched movies. played mistletoe games, and ate lots and lots of food! I love all of my friends being together. Christmas break is seriously the best thing that has ever happened to me! I'm so excited for Christmas!

Christmas Card 2011

2011-12-19T17:27:00.006-07:00

So this year Maddie and Jessie let me be a part of their Christmas card. I thought that it turned out awesome. I feel like I am slowly morping into Maddie and Jessie. But I swear i'm not! We spent wayy to long on this. BUT it was a hit everyone loved it! I had to go and get more copys cause people kept stealing my extras! Merry Christmas :)

Preping for the card..

The best 2 years

2011-12-13T13:42:00.004-07:00

Today is mine and Chelseys 2 year anniversary! You can see our last years celebration here: http://sammywarner44.blogspot.com/2010/12/1-year-baby.html Chels is up at school until friday so we are waiting for this weekend to celebrate. ( I will be sure to post about it) Happy Annie baby I love you so much!

Sara Bareilles - Gravity (Live)

2011-12-12T20:05:00.000-07:00

love.

LIFE

2011-12-12T12:14:00.002-07:00

So I am struggling majorly with trying to decide what to do with my life! The original plan was to take a year off, save up, buy a car, and then head up to Utah State.. then I was going to go nanny. And now I am thinking of moving out with all my besties in the summer and just get my generals going at UVU. I know for sure I need to start knocking some schooling out. So now I am thinking working my little bum off saving saving saving! Buy a car, move into a big house with a ll of my best friends and then start on my generals and then go up to Utah State for my Junior and Senior year to do their child development program. I feel like I need to do things with all of my friends before they start dropping like flies in the marriage department. I hate having to make decisions but I am loving the freedom of being able to do whatever I want with my life!

2011-12-11T18:24:00.002-07:00

Meet my favorite people: Mckinsey & Kelton Holbrook. They are now a part of the blogging world! Follow them :)

http://thedailyholbrook.blogspot.com/

The one that got away..

2011-12-08T23:08:00.007-07:00

I bet you know what "Boy" I am talking about.

Every girl has that boy, your first love that is so incredibly hard to forget about.

That boy who will always have a piece of your heart.

But it is very unlikely to have that boy be the boy that you end up with.

Only in a dream world would your first love be your only love.. and if it worked out for you.. count your many blessings because you will never have to feel this pain. Sometimes you have to realize that a person can stay in your heart.. but not in your life.

Here is my screwed up 4 year relationship in a nutshell. I gave up every thing for this one special boy and it ended up coming back to bite me. No matter what crap he pulled he always had me strung along, head over heels for him. It has been a long hard road. I have lost a lot, but I have gained even more. I wouldn't take back those life lessons for anything and I am finally to a place where I am ready to move on, and learn from this past. I will never forget him and the things that he has taught me. But is time to end this never ending story, and move on to the next chapter.

I really think that this is truly one of the hardest things I have ever done. Putting so much time and effort into something, and then having it ammount to nothing is not an easy thing to swallow.The pain that you feel when your heart is broken is like no other pain. And when I am having a bad day there is nothing more I want to do than to call him. But when you know it is not going to work out, why keep hanging on?It is hard to let go. I know that it will get easier.. but I feel like it will never go away completely. I know that their will be hard days, and with each day that gets harder, I get a little bit stronger. I always wonder if 10 years from now when I am married, and have three kids. When I hear our song will I still think of him? And will it still hurt? I sure freaking hope not.

In another life I would make you stay, so I don't have to say you were the one that got away..

Hearing this song makes me think that I am not absolutely insane and that it is normal to feel these feelings. Sometimes its hard to face the music.. to face the harsh reality that it will never work out between the two of us... maybe in another life. But defiantly not in this one. So thanks, but no thanks. And if you could toss me that chunk of my heart that you a dragging around, that would be great.

watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

Temple Square

2011-12-08T22:54:00.003-07:00

Saturday I went up to Temple Square with my good friend Lucas. We went to wingers and then walked around temple squareand went back to Kristens house and watched a movie. It was seriously one of the funnest dates I have ever been on! We doubled with Brandon and Cierra and we made a pact to only call eachother food names the whole night... we got pretty creative. The whole night was so classic besides the fact that we got the worst service ever. Plus it was a Christmas activity what could be better?

Annual Irvin Cookie Party

2011-12-08T22:45:00.005-07:00

My friend Jenny throws this party every year where everyone decorates differn't cookies and then you vote, and then the winners get prizes. Every year I think of how I am going to top my self cause I am just that good.. obviously you can see here that I out did my self this year.. with this masterpeice. I am so glad that I get to go to this party every year.. it is just not christmas without it:)

2011-12-08T19:55:00.001-07:00

These are the cutest things ever.

I seriously die every time I watch these.

now this is how you fall in love..

Watch this one first..

Two Years from Hailey Haugen on Vimeo.

A few months later..

SAVE THE DATE from Hailey Haugen on Vimeo.

THANKSGIVIN'

2011-11-25T11:49:00.003-07:00

This year for thanksgiving we went up to Matt & Celeste house. Me and Aaron being the single losers that we are got automatically booted to the kids table, which consisted of food getting thrown, Recess talk, and them triple dog daring me to eat the gross side dishes. Our dinner and pie was amazing and of course having so many boys in our family we played, watched, and talked about football most of the day. I had such a good thanksgiving!

Chelsey, Sam and I had this bright idea to go to Black Friday at Target. Me and Chels did not sleep the night before (mistake #1) and we were there for over 3 hours waiting in line to check out! Never again.. unless I actually have a goal this time.. like a big screen, or a laptop.. other than that, nothing is worth that hassle.

Slight Obsession

2011-11-22T13:23:00.007-07:00

Okay so me and Sam may, or may not be obsessed with Taylor Swift Sam pre-ordered her concert DVD and so we got it a couple of days before it came out and we have watched it every night since. We have converted around 7 people so far and we are currently in the process of making a video that we are sending into Ellen DeGeneres... we will meet Taylor. Anyways here is my T-swift filled weekend:)

Watching her win Artist of the year.. Texting/tweeting/facebooking the news!

Happy 21st Kinsey!

2011-11-22T13:20:00.004-07:00

Kinsey Turned 21 on Sunday and on Saturday I planned a little surprise dinner at Rice King for her. Me and Maddie kidnapped her and everyone was there waiting. I think that she had a good birthday :)

Finally.. SNOW!

2011-11-19T13:41:00.005-07:00

I have been in Christmas mode since it hit midnight on Halloween. Me and Maddie are constantly listening to Christmas music and the bucket list has already been made. This has been a really hard year and I could defiantly use some Christmas cheer! It has been hard to feel 100% like Christmas when there is pumpkins up everywhere, and the leaves are all over. But last night it snowed for the first time and it stuck! YES. Me and Paloma were sitting in my window seat painting our nails when I noticed it was a blizzard outside so I grabbed my camera and we ran outside to play it in! It is a tradition for me that I get a picture in every first snow fall of the year.. it is so exciting! I can't wait for the Holidays to officially start!

2011-11-19T13:39:00.006-07:00

There is nothing better than a solid slumber party with my childhood best friends :)

Respect

2011-11-18T00:46:00.006-07:00

I have come to realize that the most important thing for a girl to have is Respect. Respect for herself, and respect for others.

RESPECT: A feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements.

Synonyms:
noun. regard - esteem - reverence - deference - consideration
verb. honour - honor - esteem - regard - venerate - revere

When you think of the word respect what is the first words that come to mind? For me it sounded so easy. I never really realized all that it stood for. It means to honor yourself, it means to be confident, it means to see your self as god sees you. It means to consider others, your future, and the outcome to your decisions.

Just like anything in life.. if you want something, you have to work for it.
If you want respect, you have to demand it.
If you want love, you have to be capable of giving it and receiving it

There is too many cases of girls thinking that they can find love minus the respect, minus loving themselves. You can't expect somebody to love you, if you don't love yourself. And you defiantly cannot expect somebody to respect you if you have no self respect.

Here is how it usually goes..
Girl wants to fit in.
Girl is a little insecure.
Girl wants to be loved.
Girl doesn't feel loved.
Girl doesn't feel like just being her is good enough to be loved.
Girl meets boy.
Girl does what she thinks she has to do to be loved.
Boy gets, and forgets.
Girl gets heartbroken.
Girl feels worse than she did before.

It is a sad cycle.. but it happens.

It is not always the funnest or the coolest thing to be that girl.. the one who ruins the fun of the vulgar music, or the rated R movie. It is not always fun to turn down a cute guy, who is after you for the wrong reasons. It is not always fun to lose the guy to the slutty girl.. But you want to know what is fun? Having a boy love you for just being you. And for helping people by your example. Being worthy of the temple, all of its blessings, and for being worthy of that boy that you want, and that you deserve.

You don't get respect for yourself by just being pretty, or by having a lot of awesome boys out to pursue you. You get it by being close to god, and working hard for what you believe in, and by not settling for anything less than what you deserve.

I have had a really hard time when it comes to this subject. I entered the crazy love world without fully understanding this. The world today makes us think that for a boy to like you he has to lust after you first. Yeah, boys may like those things.. but at the end of the day the boys worth having don't want a girl who would throw it all away for a little attention. I am so grateful for learning this lesson this early in life. I probably chose the hardest way possible. And I defiantly chose the worst boy to teach me these things. But here I am, I made it out alive and stronger than ever.

I promise you that it is worth it. I have not seen the light at the end of the tunnel quite yet, but I am on my way. And every day that passes that I can go without seeing him, without settling, and with standing up for myself and believing that I am worth it, and that I am capable of having what I want. Gives me more hope for my future. And just knowing that If I do the right thing... god will do the rest and guide me to my happily ever after, makes it all worth it.

Thank you Chelsey Mowen for teaching me that you can never go wrong by doing the right thing. Thank you for your amazing example and for always knowing the right things to say to me when I am on the verge of giving up. I love you best friend.

2011-11-14T11:50:00.002-07:00

I watched the CMAs with my favorite Taylor Swift buddy, and Emilee. Taylor Swift performed, AND won entertainer of the year. It was defiantly an exciting moment. We were freaking out. We are so proud of our girl!!

I guess you can call this living..

2011-11-14T00:03:00.013-07:00

So lately I have been experiencing feelings of extreme. I am either extremely hating my new "grown up" Life style.. or I am extremely loving it. Right now I am just working, living at home, and saving up for school. I know super exciting, be jealous. The holidays are coming.. which makes everything better. I am planning on going out and Nannying starting January and then come back in time for school. So that gives my self worth a little bit of hope. Here is how an average week goes in my shoes..

Sunday:Starts off with Church (I love my new singles ward) Then my mother makes an amazing home cooked meal, all the siblings come over, inhale it, and then leave. I help the mom with dished and go to Maddies. We sit by the fire, watching chick flicks and Mary Kate and Ashley movies.

Monday: Mondays are work days. I usually get to sleep in, run errands, and then pick up grandma from the aspen center. We like to play lots of puzzles, eat a lot of food, and try to kill flys with our bare hands. We get pretty crazy.

Tuesday: Nothing too exciting usually happens on a Tuesday a random week day would probably be spent with this lovely lady. Eating at the one and only... Mi Ranchito. Then we will usually drive around listening to Christmas music. Play with randoms. And if we are feeling really crazy we may even splurge for a movie or a nice round of golf at our local Trifalga.

Wednesday: I like to call this my stay-in day.. unless something super exciting happens my day usually consists of starting my day off cleaning, watching some classic television, skyping with my best friend, and taking at least 2 bubble baths.

Thursday: These are also work days, but when I am done with work I usually go get something to eat with Sam and we always think of something stupid to do.. but it is always a good time of course. Sometimes he takes my to BYU hot spots, which is always... entertaining.

Friday: This is my "Wait what? I actually have friends?" day. All of my friends from high school get together.. 9/10 chance you will find us at Happy Sumo and/or Red Mango.

Saturday: My Saturdays usually include some solid sister bonding. And then more bonding and crazy nights with the best friends. Venting about the weird people we meet. Or how much more worthless the College lifestyle really is.

I, Sammy. Here by swear to get a life, and to make something of myself.

... Starting tomorrow:)

If you have not already..

2011-11-09T11:41:00.004-07:00

Go and see Puss n' Boots. The Shrek series are some of my most favorite movies and of course I have been counting down the days to see this movie because puss is just so classic. I mean come on, what could be funnier than a Mexican cat? I have seen it twice already.. and I am feeling a third time coming soon.

Halloween

2011-11-06T23:23:00.004-07:00

I was so happy to be barley better for Halloween! I had missed most of October so I feel like I got ripped off on the Halloween front. I spent the day with Kins and my mom then we got ready and had soup with the fam. Then I went to UVU dance with the maddies and had a classic slumber party. Halloween was actually way funner than expected :)

Update

2011-11-06T23:00:00.003-07:00

Wow I have been horrible about blogging so I finally figured out everything that was going on with my eyes. I got my MRI results back and there was no tumors or anything so that is good. So I never had the flu.. I had been taking this Antibiotic called Minocyline for my acne, which was making my spinal fluid pump to fast to my brain, which was causing me to get horrible migraines which caused all of my flu like symptoms. So I stopped taking the Antibiotic... I guess I would rather see than have perfect skin. So it is going to get out of my system and it has been improving almost daily! My 6th sense ( that controls my right eye movement) is not all the way back working but it is getting there! I spent 4 hours at the Moran eye center up at the U of U last week and it was like I was some type of medial marvel all of the doctorswanted in on the action they each individually had to try and get my right eye to move and then laugh at me. They are going to keep checking up on me, if it has not improved they are going to go in and get a spinal tap and put me on this medicine! So lets hope for the best!

Me with my funky eye doctor glasses that I have been having to wear everywhere!

2011-10-29T23:16:00.003-06:00

So as you know I have been extremely sick for the past three weeks now. And about a week and a half ago I started getting super blurred vision in my right eye and I am having a hard time focusing on things..it has gotten worse over the week and now it has started to turn in. I look like an idiot and it is the most uncomfortable thing ever. I am no longer throwing up and my migraines have stopped. But I went to the doctor on Thursday and he sent me to an eye specialist for my vision. The eye doctor told me that something was pushing on my optic nerve and that it is pretty serious and scheduled me an MRI for the next morning. So this morning I had an MRI which was pretty much the scariest thing of my life. I have never even gotten a shot without my mom holding my hand.. and going in there all by my self was pretty scary for me. I get my test results back Monday, so lets hope for the best. I am so sick of being sick. But this illness has taught me so much believe it or not, and I am so grateful for it! I will let you know how it goes!

Here is a taste of what it looks like.. I cannot beleive that I am showing this picture publicly... Paloma caught this candid shot last night.. I know I am pretty good looking.

2011-10-20T20:46:00.002-06:00

Dear Sammy,
You are here by sentenced to 7-10 days of pure hell.
Love, your immune system.

So this past week I caught the most demon flu that I have ever received in my life. It has been 9 days since I have seen the outside world. Besides the fact that a select 14 pounds from my tush decided to take up residence in my toilet.. there was absolutely nothing good about the past ten days.
A couple of words of wisdom..
1. If you have not gotten the flu shot.. get it now. Like stop reading this and go get it.
2. If you know someone who has the flu.. RUN.
3. Enjoy being healthy for as long as possible.
4. If your head begins to pound constantly.. it means its coming. So stalk up on Sleeping pills, Icy hot, a good care taker, and some bubble bath.
5. You won't be able to stare at the television for very long, so I would recommend that you fill your DVR with the following shows.. That 70's show, Friends, Ellen, Up all Night, and Modern family. Because these are all the shows that are still funny with your eyes closed.
6. DON'T keep your phone within a ten foot radius of you after you take sleeping pills. ( I did hear reports of "drugged" phone calls to everyone I have ever cared about in my sleep.)

Last but not least.. just don't catch this one :)

Visit To Logan

2011-10-06T23:21:00.003-06:00

Today me and Maddie took a road trip up to Logan to visit Chelsey and Logan. Maddie was surprising Logan and was so anxious to get up there so she wakes me up at 7:30 in the morning and we make the trek up there in the blizzard,and in her little smart car. Might I add that Maddie Knowles isn't the best driver on the block.. finding our way around was a struggle. I am seriously in shock that I am home in one piece. I have never said so many swear words in one car ride in my life. Whether it was trying to get Maddie to slow down, stop looking in the mirror, or because we slid or missed a turn. It was defiantly a stressful 6 hours in the car.. BUT I was so happy to see my best friend chels! I miss her so much. Utah State is my dream school and I am SO excited to go up there next year! Overall it was a pretty good day:)

Wish i'd never grown up.

2011-10-05T02:08:00.007-06:00

So here is the thing... this whole growing up thing isn't really working out for me. I think I am and will always be a child at heart? I think my death date must be coming soon because I can honestly not picture myself as a grown up.

Tonight me and the Maddies watched all of our old videos.. from 1st grade until now. And I seriously went home being so depressed. I will never have that again. I had such a good childhood and such a fun high school experience, and I will be forever grateful for that.

But where do I go from here? I am at the most awkward in-between time in my life. All of my friends are off doing their own thing, some together, some on their own. I know that it is my fault for being where I am at today. But due to the circumstances I am just trying to get back up on my feet and catch up to everyone. But I have no one hear to help me up. Everyone is already up to where they are supposed to be.

Life seems so cookie cutter, so predictable.. I should go to college, meet some returned missionary, fall in love, get married, have beautiful perfect babys, be a stay at home mom, and enjoy things like gardening and cooking and going to soccer games. But no one ever told me about the paying the bills, trying to figure out how to pay my self through college ,about getting my heart broken, about trials and my parents splitting up. Or friends forgetting about you. I did not prepare myself for any of this. And it is so hard for me to realize this at a time when I am feeling the most alone I have ever felt.

It is hard feeling like you are never good enough for anything.. or anyone.
It is hard feeling like you have been left by everyone you have ever cared about.
It is hard being the only child at home and when your parents are having problems you have no one here to hold you and to tell you everything is going to be okay.
It is hard feeling like you will never be capable of being loved.
It is hard growing up and having to be alone. And having to be okay with that.

I have always surround myself with people, with fun, with jokes, with boys, with laziness. Because I can't sit alone in a room and be proud of myself. I feel like I have fallen 100 times more than I have gotten up and succeeded. But I just have to remember that When life gets too hard to stand, kneel. I really need to and want to get closer to my heavenly father. I have been so lost for so long and when I am feeling alone I just have to remember that he is always there, and that he is there to help me through these things.

The unknown is scary.
The pressure of thinking that everyone little move we make right now will decide our entire future is scary.
I am scared out of my mind.
But I am holding on for dear life. It may not be with the people I thought it would be, or with the story book I have had planned. But I am hanging on, and I am doing it the only way I know how.

Bon Voyage Emilee Dyer

2011-09-30T23:00:00.003-06:00

My best friend Emilee is moving to California to pursue her dreams in becoming a fashion designer. She is living in the big city of LA and is attending FIDM. I am so proud of her. Saying goodbye to em was the hardest thing I have yet to do. I know that sounds pathetic. ( I am just a little teenage girl saying bye to her little high school friend) I know most of you are thinking that its high school, you don't keep in touch with friends from high school. Em is different. Emilee has gotten me through the hardest part of my life. She has been my one true friend who has never hurt, neglected, forgotten, mistreated me. I do not think that I appreciated her enough. Besides the fact that I went to her house 47 different times a day. Her home was my second home. Mama Cori was my second mom. I am going to miss having em here to go over there and just tell her about my day, or cry to her, or vent to her, or to tell her my crazy love stories in every detail(because she makes me) and I pretend to be annoyed but I secretly love it. She is the only person who will listen to my worthless stories and actually sound excited about my little excitements. When I look back on my life and my good experiences Emilee will be in every single one of them. I love you so much em! You are going to kill it in LA. You better not forget about me when you make it big. I

For ems last night we went out to Happy Sumo for dinner with all of the girls, and then I threw her a big surprise party at my club house so that she could say goodbye to everyone. It was a good night. I am going to miss her so much!

Taylor Swift

2011-09-30T22:40:00.004-06:00

The big day finally came. I went to the Taylor Swift concert, and I can honestly say that it was the best night of my life. It was the most put together show that I have ever been to and she set a different mood for each song. When she was singing Dear John and the fireworks started going off.. was the best moment of my life. I have never been so happy. Okay maybe I am exadurating a tad, BUT it seriously was indescribable. It was worth every penny.

2011-09-28T12:54:00.002-06:00

Buying Taylor Swift tickets is the best thing that has ever happened to me.. every bad thing that has happened to me the past week has just been erased with the sight of these babies right here. T-swift is my girl and she KNOWS my life. This is going to be the most legit therapy sesh of my life. I really think I will cry. Me and steph are going all out.. you better believe it. I broke into my savings to get these tickets.. But memories last a lifetime right? I am just thinking of it as a trip to nordstroms. TOTALLY WORTH IT.
Excuse me while I prepare for the best night of my life.

Sundance Moonlight Lift

2011-09-25T12:59:00.002-06:00

Every full moon Sundance has a moonlight lift, where you can go up and ride the Ski lift and so Sam and I went on a triple date with everyone. It was so fun!

2011-09-25T12:54:00.002-06:00

Sometimes we like to surprise Jessie up at the Uof U :)

2011-09-20T16:59:00.001-06:00

Saturday was Felicitys first birthday. I cannot believe she is already one! She is walking everywhere I cannot wait to watch her grow and grow :)

I worship pay day

2011-09-16T19:14:00.004-06:00

Money makes me one happy girl!

12 hour work day

2011-09-04T02:38:00.003-06:00

So you know those days where you wake up dreading it.. and you think " Oh what I would do to just fast forward to the end of this day!" Well today def had the potential to be one of those days.

I will start from 4:00 Friday afternoon..

4:00 Get off of work at Response.
5:00 Go to dinner with the girls party party all night.
2:45 am Arrive home and watch television...
3:00 am CAN'T SLEEP
4:00 am CAN'T SLEEP
5:00 am fall asleep.
7:45 am Alarm.. time to get up for work!
8:30-3:30 Work at Response.
3:35-9:15 Work at grandmas
9:30 Receive a second wind.. call all of my friends to party.. oh wait everyone responds: " movie night!"
10:00 Say hi to Mads, Brandon, and Jessie.
10:15 High-Jack chels from some random party.
10:30 Quicky del run.
10:45 Deep talk with chels.. peace the freak out to bed.
2:44am Blog about it?

ROUGH

And here I sit type type typing away. My eyes weigh at least 73 pounds.. EACH and I can only hear out of my left ear.

Highlights of my day:
-Convincing Juan Hernandez to let me send his information to not only one school but FIVE schools...Can I get a holla back?
-Trying to get my grandma to use her walker.. she would refuse and then hide it.. I would retrieve it and the attempt to show her how to use it.. then she would go hide it..again.
-Grandma shoving potato salad down my throat seven different times.
" Sammy.. come over here and tell me if this is any good."
" Oh no thanks grandma.. I am still full from lunch."
" Come on you big baby!"
" Hahah okay grandma I'll try some."
I force a bite down my throat.. " Yum!"
Next thing I know there is grandma dishing me up a nice big plate of potato salad.
Once I downed half/pretended to blow my nose as i dished some in my tissue.. me and grandma cleaned up from dinner and started to watch a movie. About a half hour into it.. " Sammy I have some potato salad that you should try and tell me if it is any good."
... I'm out.

Good thing I went in today thinking that it would go by fast if I just fake it till I make it.. I read half of time travelers wife (amazing) if you have seen the movie and hated it.. read the book. LOVE it. I also made my annual fall AND winter bucket lists.. woo woo!

Well now this " short/quick" Post has turned into a novel. I'M off to bed for the rest of the weekend. Later!

2011-09-01T21:16:00.002-06:00

This week has pretty much contained of:Work, work and more work,Catching the worst cold I have had in years, and coming home from work every day and going straight to bed.

A few things that have gotten me through this week..
Four hot baths a day.
Vaseline ( keeps my nose nice and moist)
Greys anatomy
Bachelor Pad
Ice Water
27 pills of vitamin C every 2 hours.
My new love for Disney show tunes.
My mother for taking such good care of me.
Kinsey for covering my shift tonight.
Excedrin PM
Hey-telling Maddie all night.
The fact that I get to see all of my best friends this weekend :)

2011-09-01T21:05:00.004-06:00

Meet Response Marketing newest employee. I am super cool because I got a job at a phone place.. NOT. But I am a young teen in desperate need of some major cash, and if that means I have to listen to people complain about my phone calls, so be it. I actually enjoy my job believe it or not. My team is awesome and I have already made some "work friends" AND I just happen to work with Maddie so we take our breaks together. I have never felt more legit sitting in a room eating chex mix with my best friend. We are so grown up it is ridiculous.

The homie pad

2011-08-29T02:01:00.003-06:00

Our friends Connor, Austin, and AJ moved out last week. So of course me and Cierra have been over there every night being the bestest friends ever. We brought them del one night and have deep talks late into the night. Tonight we went over and watched the VMAs and made dessert. Their roomates know us as the originals. And of course, it is always a good night when we stop by :) All of my friends have been moving out so me and ci have been apartment hunting and saving up so we can move out at the semester! Woo woo!

2011-08-23T23:37:00.001-06:00

But sometimes it hurts instead.

Second Chances

2011-08-23T22:54:00.002-06:00

I am counting my blessings one by one. Trying to figure out how I got so dang lucky when it comes to a second chance. My life was headed in a downward spiral and I have now gotten the chance to have a glimpse into the direction my life was headed down. With a guy who didn't deserve me. An unfinished education and an un happy life. Luckily for me. Today my life was changed for the better. All though it was bitter sweet. I am mourning the loss of something I loved so much. But at the same time, I am getting a second shot at the future that I have always wanted.

It is crazy that when you are doing the right thing, the rest just falls into place. I have learned so many things by going through this trial. And I will be forever grateful.

I have the most amazing friends and the most amazing family. I am happy to announce that my life is 100% heading back toward the direction I want it in. Hard work really does pay off, and it really is worth it in the long run.

I hate goodbyes..

2011-08-21T18:50:00.001-06:00

My best friend moved away to college today. To our dream school :( So sad to see her go. Meet you up there next year chels!

Some words of wisdom

2011-08-18T00:24:00.003-06:00

Life.. ahh. Where do I even start? Lets just say that this summer will defiantly be one to remember. Not that that is a good thing. But I made it through it. I can say that I have not handled everything how I probably should have. My life is about to change so much and that scares me. The unknown is so scary.. especially entering the "unknown world" for the first time. All of my friends move this weekend. I am stuck here for this year. Working full time and saving up for school. I have some amazing friends that I do not know where I would be without. I cannot wait to watch and see what amazing things they accomplish in their lives. I have fallen a lot this summer. I think the term " hit rock bottom" would suffice. But the good thing about hitting rock bottom is that you can only go up. I have tried so hard to stay positive through everything. But it is hard. Honestly so hard. And this past week.. it has seemed impossible.

A few life lessons that I have learned.
-If you don't respect your self you cannot expect anyone else to respect you.
-Honesty is the best policy.
-Face your problems head on.. don't put it off, it only makes things worse.
-Don't settle.
-Don't ever feel like you are too far gone to confide in your heavenly father.
-Work hard AND Play hard. Not one or the other.
-Surround yourself with people that love you no matter what, and that have your best interests at heart.
-Be a good friend, and surround yourself with good friends.

Sometimes things need to get worse before they can get better. And if god brings you to it.. he will help you through it. We are in control of our lives. We are the only ones who can make our lives what they want to be. So why not fight hard to get the best life for yourself? If you are working hard, doing the right thing, and being a good person. You deserve it.

Tyke

2011-08-17T01:31:00.003-06:00

Meet my brother.. Aaron we call him Tyke.
I have no idea why.
He has had the nick name ever since he was little.
Aaron is my hero
.

He is truly the best brother that anyone could ask for. He is seriously the rock in my family. He has always been the strongest and he is always the one to put us back together when something tears us apart. I swear that there has been a Warner family curse. Someone is always getting injured or something is always going on. Even when my brother has had the worst day he has never raised his voice at me or complained once about his life. About a year ago he broke his leg playing intermural football at BYU. He tore a bunch of things in his leg and he has lost all feeling in his foot. He has struggled walking and has tried so hard to have a positive attitude about everything. This past Saturday he broke his arm getting hit by a pitch, playing baseball. Me and my mom have decided that god is giving him his trials through injuries because he has not ever done something to make himself suffer. He has always done the right thing.. even when it has been hard. Aaron has been an example to me in so many ways. He has set the bar so high for when it comes to boys in my life. He makes me realize that there is good boys out there and is the type of guy I would want to marry. I honestly don't think that he can ever find a girl that will be good enough for him. I am so so grateful to have such an amazing big brother! I love you so much tyke!

Coronado 2011

2011-08-16T13:39:00.008-06:00

An average day in california..

-Paloma waking us up in the morning..trying to get us to work out.

-Sometimes we would.

-Eating breakfast and waiting for the sun to come out.

-Make some sweet sweet music videos

-Once we saw even the slightest bit of sun we would throw on our suits and trek it down to the beach.

-Once we got to the beach we would lay out until we sweat.

-Then me and Jessie would convince Paloma and Emilee to come get in the ocean with us.

-Emilee would trip balls over the seaweed.

-Paloma woud get "cold" aka: Want to go back to shore to contiue getting black.

-We would lay out some more, get black, get back in the ocean, boogie board, catch some sweet sweet waves, then head over to the hot tubs!

-Once there, we would chill for a bit, get some water, get all the seaweed out of our suits and head back to the beach house to get dressed.

-Showering was not an option.

-We would get ready in.5 seconds and head for the shopping malls.

-We would shop until patty dropped!

-Then we would head back home.

-Have a "Fashion Show" Pretty much describing our clothes and the great deals we got in elaberate detail. " Can I get a steal? STEAL!"

-After that we would either watch jersey shore/ some cheesey A movie.

-Me and jessie shoving emilee off of us the whole time.

-I would pass out on the couch, wake up, instantly head for my bedroom. "i'm out later."

Classic cali quotes/moments

"This ice smells like Chuckie Cheese" -Jessie

"I'm the lattle, your the spoon, and she is the teaspoon.. And I am the cloth the wraps around the spoons.. Uh emilee who wraps their spoons in cloth?"

"Can I get a steal? STEAL!"

"My del weighs more than my suitcase!" -Me

"We are roasting like sausages!" -Paloma

"Do you have any more rat stuffed animals in the back?"-Paloma

"Hey sammy..remember that one time I called emilee autistic and you got offended?"-Jessie

-Me and emilee trying to solve the murder that happend on the island.

-Paloma refering to us as sausages the whole week.

-Jessie laughing at every part in the stupid movie.. the glancing over at me as my que to laugh.

-Jessie giving us a legit tour of the hotel del historic lobby.

Enough Said.

2011-08-15T14:20:00.004-06:00

I have been trying to tip toe around documenting this. Or trying to put my feelings into the right words. But this song pretty much explains it all.

( Pause the song at the bottom of my page and listen to this... you won't regret it. Promise:)

But sometime you just have to walk away...

2011-08-09T14:19:00.003-06:00

Tomorrow I get the lovely privilege of going to California with these three ladies..

Departure Time: 8:35 a.m.

Peace the freak out Utah!

Get ready for the best mother effing 5 days of your life!

We made it!

2011-08-06T13:25:00.002-06:00

We are finally old enough to go 80's dancing yay! Me and the Maddies have been dreaming of this day since the seventh grade. And for as much as we talked it up.. it did not disappoint. Girls got in free before 10 so we went at like 9:59 so that we avoided paying the 10 dollars. We ended up leaving at 11:45 cause honestly.. I can not keep up with my friends anymore! Totally worth it though. If you are ever bored on a Thursday night head up to Area 51 and get your 80's groove on!

Led Zeppelin Laser Show

2011-08-04T12:47:00.004-06:00

Sometime we randomly decide to go up to the Led Zeppelin Laser Show in SlC. Me, Maddie, Liz, Aubree, Tessie, and t. It wSy. All went up. It was at the Clark Planetarium at the Gateway. It was freaking sweeas just in the big dome and they played Led Zeppelin the whole time. I was trippin balls the whole time and I felt super motion sickness afterward but it was totally worth it. The ride up there and back was so fun it pretty much consisted of Me Maddie, and Sy jammin out to all of our favorite classic jams in the back seat. And not to mention we got yummmmy crepes at I hop afterward. SUCH a good night!

Pool Time

2011-08-04T12:38:00.003-06:00

ZOO? Yes please.

2011-08-03T11:28:00.000-06:00

Saturday we made a very successful Zoo trip :) We all dressed up and showed up ready to cover every inch of that place. The only thing was missing was the lions, Bears, and Penguins! I am loving our activity streak. Hopefully we keep it up A-Z of activity list..Aquarium..Check Zoo..Check! Whats next ladies?

Family Photo

Me and mads made "MuZOOic CDS for the car ride they had songs like: Welcome to the jungle, Tarzan and Jane, The circle of life, Under The Sea, Eye of the tiger, Hakuna Matata and many others. It was a good mood setter :)

I had been craving these ice cream cones forever.. I remember when they used to have them and McDonalds. They were my childhood and I finally found them!

2011-08-01T12:18:00.000-06:00

So I have been wanting to go on a legit camp out all summer. I had mentioned it to Cam a few times and he surprised me with the camp out that I have been wanting! Him and Dylan went up earlier that day to take up the stuff and set up the spot and it was a freaking hard hike. They had the tent all set up and cam made yummy tin foil dinners and they brought up some speakers to play music. It was so fun:) Defiantly up there in the top ten best nights of the summer!

2011-07-28T11:10:00.000-06:00

Guess what? I hop finally got funnel cakes!
But guess what else? THEY SUCK.

Me and Cierra decided to venture out from our usual funnel cake fries from del taco and try the real thing at I hop. It was one of those things where you take bite after bite hoping for the next one to be better.. but it never does. It was not fluffy or delicious. I am certainly disappointed the only thing that is keeping me together is knowing that I can still have my funnel cake fries.. these are the one thing I could eat for the rest of my and be 700 pounds over weight and be completely satisfied with my life. DON'T try them.. for your own good. Or do cause it is totally worth it. And the more people buy them the longer del will keep it on the menu. Thank you del taco.. you never let me down:)

ZOO? Not quite..

2011-07-28T10:59:00.000-06:00

Sometimes Cierra, Jessie, and I decide to make a spontaneous trip to the zoo. But after we make the trek up there we come to discover that the Zoo closed over an hour and a half ago because " There was an event" So the we peaced the freak out to the Aquarium which was freaking awesome. I got to pet a sting ray and see some sharks and Turtles and Alligators. But it was just a little warm up for the zoo on Saturday. It was a good thing it didn't work out today because we are going to make it an ever better, Unforgettable Zoo trip which will include.. Us dressing up like Safari Girls for down unda. Me making an awesome MuZOOic CD for the ride up their with every jungley song imaginable. We are going all out and I cannot wait. I love it when me and my friends actually get out and dooo stuff! :)

Cierra Jae Hansen

2011-07-20T03:02:00.000-06:00

Can I just brag for a second... Cierra is honestly my most favorite person ever. Out of all of my friends she has been here for it all. She checks up on me every day without fail.. I wake up with a text from her. She is the only one who will wait for me when I am scootering slow down the canyon and not to mention the only one who would drop ANYTHING to come to my rescue whether it is to be my wingman.. or to come meet me in the harmons parking lot when I am having a break down. She is always thinking of others before herself and never treats others poorly. You can always count on Cierra for always being on time and ready to party. Even though Cierra is going to get married fresh out of high school to some beautiful brown boy out there. I know that she will always have my back and be my best friend no matter what. Our bonding seshes every monday night have def done us good. We pretty much live the same rough life. I honestly do not know where I would be without this girl.

I love you so much baby c thanks for everything!!

Eighteen

2011-07-20T02:21:00.000-06:00

The day has finally come.. I am offically an adult! I am sad to see my childhood fly by me. But I am excited for the next chapter of my life. I had the best birthday my friends are seriously the best. I started off the night with cierra cheering me up and eating fun dip in the harmons parking lot.. i know i know so exciting but then my friends kidnapped me and took me to dennys everyone was there! Then in the morning which statrted at noon because I tried to sleep in as much as possible..The maddies came and took me to sonic and gave me their presents. Then I went to lunch at Mi Ranchito with my family. Then later that night Paloma came and picked me up and we went back to her house and all the girls cooked dinner for me and then we watched some Tosh.O and then they surprised me with a surprise pool party at shaylis! Aren't my friends the gratest? I really do love them. It was for sure a good way to make the big transfer from a child to an adult:)

Sammy/Cierra Monday nights

2011-07-12T01:19:00.001-06:00

So sometimes me and Cierra have no lives on monday nights.. they pretty much consist of.. Getting slurpees and or beef jerky, trying to find someone to say hi to who loves us, Going up to the water towers and listening to the whole Justin Bieber cd.. twice, Driving around blasting "Highs N Lows" relating it to our lives.. its therapy, and well pretty much just being our classic selves.
Top quotes for the night:
" Screw you guys.. I hate mondays."
" What else do provo girls do besides cause drama and drive nice cars?"
"Is that yours?" " Yeah.. Jessie gave it to me for being pregnant.."
" Oh Justin Bieber is back on.. I'm out."
Watching meggies video.. oh my heck i have never laughed so hard in my whole life.
Pretty much a soild night with my best friend cierra.

Hiking the Y

2011-07-10T10:34:00.000-06:00

Last night we decided to hike the Y.. we have been running out of things to do for a while so we thought we would switch it up.. and it is on the summer bucket list:) It was really fun!

2011-07-07T13:56:00.000-06:00

I know I have been so so bad at documenting my life lately.. but I promise I am going to get better! This summer has been really good so far. Lots of swimming mostly at Palomas, Sams, and Shaylis pools. Paying to go swim is never appealing. And when our friends that have pools aren't down for so swimming.. me and maddie run through her sprinklers in her backyard.. it has become a daily thing. I am now dating this boy who is the best:) Things have been pretty crazy but good. Lots of change but change that was much needed. I am moving on July 18th so I have been busy de-junking and packing. I am in desperate need of a job.. which will happen as soon as I turn 18.. which is this Wednesday. Lots of good coming up and I am so excited!

Here is a question for ya..

2011-06-24T18:21:00.000-06:00

Are people so inconsiderate that when they hear that someone is going through something or something happened to a person that they have to go spread the juicy details and tell all of their friends, foes, and peers.. Or when you confide in someone and they act like they are there and they act like they are trustworthy but the next second they are out telling people. I swear you cannot trust ANYONE! I am so fed up with the people who take big deals and big situations and treat it like juicy gossip that they can go spread around and talk about. This is somebodys life. THIS is somebodys trials. And if you have a problem with it take it up with THAT person.. gossip hurts. So next time you think you are having innocent fun spreading ish around that is NONE of your business.. think twice about it. Cause there is more to life then living through the entertainment of others hard times.
So BACK THE FREAK UP.

Thanks:)

Boys..

2011-06-14T01:28:00.001-06:00

( I know that this is a freaking novel.. but especially for you single ladies out there.. it is worth it to read.)

What is it about boys lately? I swear every deep conversation I have had with every girl this past week has been the same exact one.. Everyone is in love with that one douche bag who treats you like crap. And no matter what they do or how many times they screw you over..you keep crawling back to them..

And WHY do boys not realize how amazing us girls are? Like seriously... some of these douche bag boys have some of the most amazing girls right in front of them and it is still not enough.

This one conversation that I had this past week had stood out to me especially. I was talking to this girl at this party and she was telling me about this boy who loved her and everything was so great.. and then one day he just stopped caring and now when they see each other he does not even acknowledge her. And she vented about how she doesn't know why she cares so much or why she always goes crawling back.. but she just does. So I am sitting there trying to think of what advice I could give this girl.
But who am I to tell her what to do?
When I am stuck in the exact same boat.
I have been on and off with the same douche bag for four years and at the end of the day I always go crawling back.. lately I have been so strong and standing up for my self for once in my whole entire life. But then that makes him fight back even stronger. That makes him panic and go into super awesome boyfriend mode and he starts to show me the world.. and he starts to show me everything that I could ever have. Everything that we could ever have. And then I go crawling back again. And even at my strongest point I cannot stand in front of you and honestly say that I am done.. Because at the end of the day all I ever want to do is answer those phone calls or call him back or go and see him. WHY LADIES WHY!? WHY are we all like this..

Besides the several conversations and times this situation has been brought up this past week.. On Thursday I was driving in my car and this Kelly Clarkson song came on the radio.. I don't really remember the words but it was obviously a heartbreak song.. and in the middle of the song I started to think.. why do girls even waste there time.. Like t-swift.. start writing songs that actually mean something.. because frankly BOYS DO NO GIVE A CRAP. Like it seriously does not phase them at all.. and us girls think that writing songs about them or screaming these songs at the top of our lungs is super deep and super justifying.. well its not and this is a lot coming from me.. cause heartbreak songs are my therapy. But lets just phase it. BOYS DO NOT CARE. It is the ugly truth.

I have always believed that there is the perfect boy out there who is going to love me so much and treat me so good. But with all of the stories I have been hearing lately and all of the "Good boys" that have been disappointing me lately.. I am starting to highly doubt that.

All though I must say.. this whole playing hard to get/ standing up for my self is really working and I should have tried this a LONG time ago.. but there is the thing at what point do I draw the line from getting satisfaction out of this begging ... to moving on from it. To moving on from him.

Dealing with boys and trying to comprehend what the HECK they are thinking will be a struggle for the rest of my life. Hopefully one little fella out there soon will make this all worth me while :)

Expect the worst.. But hope for the best.. that way disappointment is never an option. -Cierra Hansen

..Words to live by baby

2011-06-13T12:15:00.000-06:00

My good friend Jord left a few nights ago to move to Arizona..it is so sad. He is the first to go and it is so weird that everyone is going to be going their seperate ways. A bunch of us are going to go down in a few weeks to visit him. On his last night we all went up to squaw peak and got a bunch of blankets and cuddled up in the back of the car and just talked. It was so fun. For sure a good last night to remember.

Senior All Nighter

2011-06-05T20:08:00.000-06:00

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After graduation we had a Stomp.. which was probably the funnest stomp yet. Then right after we all went home and changed then went to the senior all nighter. It started off with Comedy Sports then Costa Vida catered. They had lazer tagging through out the whole school, sumo wrestling, black light volley ball, Just dance, Minute to win it games, and lots more. It ended around 3:30 and then it is tradition to go and sleep out on the football field.. we stayed out there until the sun rose. I think I got a total of 2 hours of sleep this WHOLE week. I have had all sorts of activities and fun things going on this week:)

Graduation

2011-06-05T19:58:00.000-06:00

Happy Graduation Class of 2011.. we finally made it.

It's been real High School..

2011-06-01T10:28:00.000-06:00

but it is time for me to start the rest of my life..

High School is officially over. I always knew this day would come.. but I didn't think that it would be this fast. Overall I would say that I had a pretty solid High School experience.

Words of advice to those who are about to enter the High School world..

-Don't skip class.. seriously not worth it.
- Never EVER chose a boy over a friend.
-Get good grades...it pays off.
- Don't gossip it comes back to bite you.
- Don't wear your heart on your sleeve.. it will get broken.
- Try and get as involved as you can.
-Don't stress about the little things there is more to life than dances and boys.
-Only date boys with your same standards.. they will drag you down.
- Don't feed into drama stay sea level with everyone.
-Don't give up.
-Be the best person that you can be.. and let people see your true self.
-LIVE IT UP!

Here is a summary of my High School Experience.

Senior Year: Senior year defiantly did me well... I did SO many activities and i have had so much fun doing it all. This whole year I have tried to just live it up. I knew that it would go by so fast.. but not this fast. I have had a lot of trials this year but they have made me stronger and I am who I am today because of them. Senior year was everything I hoped it would be and more.. with a few exceptions. I loved coming back together with everyone to form a few final good memories.

My favorite memories of Senior Year:
- Watching The Bachelor at Kristen's house every Monday night.
-St George and Vegas trip in March with EVERYONE.
- Emilee's New Years Eve party.
- Park City Trip with all the girls.
- Senior Picnic
-Preference with Brandon
- Dominating in the spirit bowl
-MORP(Funnest dance ever)
-Senior all nighter
-Sleeping out on the track mats.
-Senior prom
- Stupid Cupid party
-Park City Spring Break trip
-Shasta runs with PJ
-Heartbreak therapy sesh at the water towers with Chelsey.
- Sadies with Jord.
- Basketball games and assemblies

Junior Year: Junior Year was probably the hardest year for me the first half was full of drama, heartbreak and a lot of change. I ended up Transferring schools half way through the year over to Timpanogos. Which was probably the best decision I have ever made. The second half was full of fun with all of my timp girls.

Favorite memories from Junior year:
- Pirate island girls night then the football game.
-Going to Maddies dads house every day for lunch and eating cereal.
-Cruising around in Maddies little car.
-Being worthless with Kenzie.
-St. George trip with Maddie, Chelsey and Kenzie.
-Cabin trip with Kenzie and the family.
-Third wheeling it with Kenz and Baldo.
-Becoming really close with Chelsey.
-Getting to know new people.
-Going to noodles and company every day with Emilee
-Partying with everyone when my parents would go out of town.
-Going up to salt lake with Emilee and our moms over homecoming weekend.
- New Years Eve with Emilee, Steph, and Cierra.
- Going to all of the soccer games with kenz.
-Vegas spring break trip with my mom.
-Hanging out with the old neighborhood boys.
-Football and Basketball games with the friends.
-Spirit bowl damage night

Sophmore Year: My Sophomore year was probably the year I was the most involved. I was Cheering, Dancing, and still trying to have a social life. It was so fun cheering at all of the games and performing at the Assemblies. My sister was a Senior when I was a Sophmore so I spent a lot of time with her which I loved. Even though she embarrassed me A LOT I am still so happy that I got to go to school with her. Sophomore year it was still pretty much just me and the Maddies every weekend with random boys. I made friends with a lot of the cheer girls. And this was the year that I started hanging out with all of the Timpanogos girls

Favorite memories from Sophomore year:
- Cheering, Performing, Competing, Becoming a family with my cheer girls.
-Metro Station concert with all the timp girls.
-Sadie Hawkins dance.. we took the special needs. Going to I-hop after with all the cheer girls.
- Our Disco Skating Obsession.
-Going to Maddies dads house every day after school.
-Stealing Maddies car and going to the mall before she had her license.
-Sluffing with Kinsey in the mornings and going to Mimi's Cafe.
-Rice king at least 3 times a week with Kinsey and Ian.
-Walking to Camerons house every day after school for ice cream.
- Meeting all of the new crew.
-Taking the hall pass and hanging out in the Tiger Lounge.
-Making posters every Thursday with Sariah.
-Hawaii with Maddie and her family

Freshman Year: This year pretty much consisted of me, maddie and maddie. This was the year of a lot of firsts. My first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first huge fight with my friends, my first dance.. I could go on and on. Freshman year was probably my favorite. I feel like everyone got along with everyone and there was not really any drama. Me and the Maddies stuck together and had the time of our lives. There was no stress.. graduation was too far away to even think about.. we could not even drive so jobs and working were out of the question.

Favortie memories from freshman year:
- Migrating down to Bajio from Maddie McClellan house in rain or shine.
-Having Monster/Boo Koo nights with Sam and Jenny after every break-up we went through.
-Dressing up with my friends and playing Sing Star
-Dance Parties at Brittons
-Driving around in Matt the Dougs van
-My relationship with Lucas
-Being a Chess Club member..because the shirts were cool.
-Valentines day Step-up 3 with Maddie and Tyler and Cameron and I.
- The ultimate night with Cameron, Sy, Me and Maddie.
-Maddies 15th birthday party.
- Biking down to Riverwoods and doing Bike Ballet
-Taking all sorts of photoshoots with Kinsey
- Going to the CVJH basketball games and making fun of them.
-Aerobics with Maddie Knowles funnest class.
- Walk
I could go on forever.. I loved Freshman Year.

Later High School... you have been good to me. But you won't be missed for now..

Number one best therapy of all time.. .

2011-05-25T10:47:00.000-06:00

I have been driving up to salt lake a lot latley because, Kinsey and Kelton live up there now so I will go visit them or I will go babysit the littles. Last night I went and watched them while Matt&Celeste went to the U2 concert and I loved the drive more than anything.. getting some good solid music and just blasting it by myself singing at the top of my lungs with nothing to worry about but the open road.. ah seriously the best thing ever.

Here are some highlights of watching the littles.

Baby Felicity

Bedtime snack: Bread with chocolate frosting.. the insisted and told me that they couldn't sleep without it..

Trying to put Brevan to bed was definatly a chore.. he kept coming down saying that he wanted to just cuddle or that his panda bear pillow pet wanted to play. So eventually I caved in and let him snuggle up with me and cora until he fell asleep.

Later on when we were looking for a movie to watch on demand.. Cora was searching through the DVR and saw 16 and Pregnant on there.. and she goes :" 16 and Pregnant? Oh.. I promise Sammy I will never get pregnant at 16..that is just plain stupid." I laughed and then I asked her. " What would you do if I got pregnant right now? Would you be mad?" The she said: " Well first of all I would need to talk to this boy and see what he is thinking.. and then I would make sure you and the baby are okay and then I would watch the baby all of the time!" The brevan said: " I would not be mad because the baby would be soo cute and I would play with it all the time!" I was peeing my pants.. good to know that if I were to get pregnant they would have my back haha!

2011-05-24T11:53:00.000-06:00

Day-1 Introduce your best friends.

Emilee Rose Dyer

What makes Emilee my best friend? Well besides the fact that I spend every spare second that I have with her.. She is seriously my other half. Whenever something exciting happens she is the first person I want to call. Or if i need someone to come to Mi Ranchito she is always down. There is never a dull moment with us because we make everything into a joke. Emilee Dyer is going places. So when I look back on this post in ten years.. I will be honored that she is at the top of my list. Emilee has been here for me through the thick and the thin and has never done anything to hurt me. Shes got my back no matter what and she is def the best sidekick/wing man in the world. I love you Emishee!

Madeleine Kim McClellan

Well it all began way back when dinosaurs ruled the earth.. AKA: Thirteen years ago when we met in our little first grade classroom. The first time I laid eyes on her cute pink Gap backpack.. I knew that we could be best friends forever.. and we have been friends ever since! This thirteen years had been filled with homemade talk-shows, Sleepovers, Fights, Boys, Vacations together, Moving, Trials, Inside Jokes, and Good times. She has been here for me through every step of the way. She has a good role in the person that I am today. My whole life I have been growing up trying to be more like Maddie. She honestly has helped me more than she even knows. And she still is one of the most amazing people out there. There has for sure been bumps in the road.. but at the end of the day I know that I always will have Maddie and that she is ultimately my best friend. I am %100 positive that " Best Friends Forever" definatly applies to this friendship. I love you mads!

Chelsey Nicole Mowen

This friendship probably has meant the most to me. Because I have faught so hard for it. Despite everything that had happened. Chelsey is still my best friend. Chelsey is that light in my life that everyone should have in theirs. She makes me a better person and makes me strive to do my very best. She makes me stronger every day. And most of my favorite moments have been spent with her. I know that no matter what happens she will always be my best friend. I love you chels!

2011-05-24T11:49:00.000-06:00

These two lovebirds got hitched on Friday and I could not be any happier for them! It was def a good day. Love you guys so much! I will post a more detailed post once we get all of the pictures back:)

MORP

2011-05-15T20:29:00.001-06:00

Saturday was my very last high school dance.. and it was the best one of them all. I loved every second of it! In my group it was Me Cameron, Emilee Sy and Maddie and Harris The theme was "Rewind" so we had to dress up like different decades me and Cam were a 50's married couple.. housewife and business man. We hiked bridival falls for our day date, went to CPK for dinner, did pictures in the photo booth, went to the dance and partied partied after! For every dance I have done a huge group with all of my friends so it was nice to have just my two best friends and our dates!

Kinseys Bachelorette Party

2011-05-09T11:29:00.000-06:00

Saturday was kinseys bachelorette party. We started off the night with going to Olive Garden for dinner.. then we went to riverwoods to do a scavanger hunt for her, where she had to accomplish all of these things. Then we cruised university and blasted music. Celeste went all out.. she got so many decorations..even for her car! We played all sorts of games and did presents. I am gonna miss my sister being single and partying with me! It was definatly a good last night out!

My mom is better than yours..

2011-05-08T23:07:00.000-06:00

But really.. SHE IS. I have the most amazing mom in the whole entire world.. she is not only my mom because she gave birth to me.. she has dedicated every second of her life to me the past seventeen years. My mom does not have a single selfish bone in her body. She honestly sacrifice her happiness for anyone else just to see them happy. My mom is not only the most amazing mom that I know.. she is the most amazing person I know. On top of all of this.. she is the strongest person I know.. she has had soo many trials in her life and she has always remembered what is important and has done the right thing. AND not to mention that she is my best friend. She is pretty much the whole package:) Love you mom!

Weekly Catch-Up

2011-05-04T17:21:00.001-06:00

This week has pretty much consisted of working on packets. I HATE accounting it is so hard. I have been stuck on these packets forever! Also a lot of playing with Maddie, Chelsey, and Sam. Monday me and Maddie had Maddie/ Sammy day! We went to kneaders, Cascade, Sonic with sam and the ODC concert. We listened to all of our old songs and talked about how much we miss the good old junior high days! I seriously wish I could go back! Then Yesterday I was having a rough day and Chelsey came and brought me a diet coke with cranberry and studied/ played with me. I just love her so much! Coming up this week.. The TDT concert.. so excited my friends are all such amazing dancers. Then party over the weekend, including kinseys bachelorette party! Woo hoo !Here are the random captured moments for this week so far..

2011-05-04T17:10:00.000-06:00

So my brother is just the sweetest kid ever.. he is dating this girl that he really likes and it has been one of their inside jokes to act like they are talking through the waky talky (is that even how you write it?) So he planned this huge date for her and left a waky talky on her door step and gave her instructions for their date and they went laser tagging and on a mission to find this key. So me and emilee dressed up like spies.. not really but we tried. And we went and hid this box for them and delivered this letter. It was hilarious. Here is some footage..

Prom 2011

2011-05-02T08:58:00.000-06:00

April 30, 2011
Senior Prom "This Moment"

Prom was so much fun! I loved it. For our day date we went to The Provo Beach Resort and did bowling, crochet, played arcade games and other random stuff. I finally broke 100 in bowling.. I think that could be the first time ever. Then we went and got ice cream at Maceys and then they took us home. Emilees hair stylist Chelsea did my hair.. and I got my hair done at Bare Minerals. Bryson picked me up around 6:30 and getting his boutineer on was a STRUGGLE. From there we went to tanners house to take pictures.. then to the school to take pictures. We went to P.F. Changs for dinner (My favorite) and then to the dance.. it was at thanksgiving point barn which was awesome. Then we went to sams after and watched a movie. Defiantly a good last hoo-ra for senior year!

2011-04-30T11:50:00.000-06:00

Prom is today woo hoo! I cannot belive it is finally here.. my last dance of all of high school.. it's bitter sweet. But I am so excited and I am just ready to live tonight up! Were going to the Provo Beach Resort for our day date.. then we are going to dinner at P.F. Changs and swimming at sams after! Can't wait:)

Date Night

2011-04-28T18:32:00.000-06:00

Last night Chelsey, Paloma and I took Sam, London and Bryson on a date, bowling and pizza at the park! It was way fun I can't wait for prom!:)

Call me creepy..

2011-04-26T23:05:00.000-06:00

But aren't they the cutest? This is my sister and he fiance' Kelton.. they get marrie May 20th and yes I am the maid of honor.. we are busy doing lots of wedding planning! I am so excited.. but yet so sad that my best friend is getting married and leaving me behind! Love you kins!

Easter Weekend

2011-04-25T17:59:00.001-06:00

So this easter pretty much sucked. My family did nothing to celebrate..oh the joys of being an only child. BUT paloma did have an east egg hunt which was so fun. I only found a total of $3.25 and Bryson found $115 CRAZY. But that three dollars did buy me del today so I am pretty content with it. Friday I went to tanners suprise party and had a sleepover with the girls and saturday we all went swimming at Sams. Here are some random captured moments..

A girls best Friend

2011-04-24T22:50:00.000-06:00

For a teenage girl.. their best friend is pretty much their life. Getting in a fight with your best friend is worse than getting in a fight or breaking up with your boyfriend.. because your best friend is the one who at the end of the day is there for you.. its their shoulder you cry on and its their words of advice that get you through it all. But what happens when your best friend hurts you? It is hard growing up and realizing that your side kick your sister your best friend is going to grow up and date boys.. and chose them over you..and hurt you. The one person who you think would never hurt you.. and then they do.. and not even just a little bit.. they literally shatter you. But when it comes to boys.. is it worth losing friends over them? Like the whole no dating exs thing.. do you honestly have to date that one boy who will always be a sore subject.. it is NOT worth it so don't even go there. I have been burned many times and have lost some friends over stupid reasons like boys.. or he said she said situations. Is their some secret pact that you can promise to be best friends forver and for it to actually work out? How can you be so close with someone and then one fight can make you not talk for months.. or ever again. I hate how things change so fast. I hate getting hurt by the people you care about. After getting hurt so many times you start to doubt that you are ever going to ever find someone in your life who truly wants the best for you and who would never hurt you.

2011-04-21T23:19:00.000-06:00

Do you ever feel like throwing a two year old tantrum? Like when something upsets you but it is SO out of your control? Right now I feel like laying on my bedroom floor and kicking my feet up and down and SCREAMING! It drives me nuts when someone is doing something that is upseting you.. but there is nothing you can do about it. Ah this is def up there on the top five worst feelings EVER.

SONIC

2011-04-21T22:42:00.000-06:00

What can we say? It's our thing.. and my 100 free Medium Cherry Limeaide cupons are THE best thing that has ever happened to us!

Landslide

2011-04-20T00:16:00.001-06:00

So I have always loved the song Landslide by Stevie Nicks..but tonight it had a new meaning for me. Do you ever find a song that you can relate to so much.. that you just listen to it over and over again? Lately I have been distracting myself from the numbness that I have been feeling. And to be completely honest I have never felt so alone. No matter how many people I have around me. I still feel alone and scared. When things are going bad in the high school department I have always had my family here for me but lately everyone else has so many bigger things to deal with.. but none of them include me. So I am dealing with all of my hardships alone. I am to the point in my life where all of the decisions I make now.. mold my future. And I feel like I have failed in every area. I have fallen and gotten back up before. But I recently fell hard and I am just laying here waiting for somebody to help me up. But I am the only one. It is my life now and I have to make it what I want it to be. And that scares me. Here are the lyrics..

I took my love, I took it down

I climbed a mountain and turned around

And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills

Till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?

Can the child within my heart rise above?

Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?

Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Mmmmm, Mmmm, Mmmm

Well, I've been afraid of changing cause I've built my life around you.

But time makes you bolder.

Children get older, and i'm getting older too.

Take my love, take it down

ohh., climb a mountain and turn around.

And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills.

well, the landslide will bring it down.

Trials can either make us weaker.. or they can make us stronger. I feel like the past few years I have been focusing on things that arent important. And yeah I have made huge mistakes .. but then I started to turn my life around.. but THEN oh what do you know SUP another trial.. the biggest trial that I have ever had to face.. and here I am back at square one. It is the scariest thing to feel as if you are not prepared for the storm that you can see coming. And to feel that I am not strong enough to past the tests that are given to me. To feel failure in every department.

Life will get better.. then harder. But I need to find solid ground to stand on so that I can become strong enough for the next one. I just need to pull it together and finish off strong.. then just move away to college and start my life and focus on my future. Because this is it.. I have learned the hard way that you can't go back and fix your mistakes.. or change others actions. I just need to find the right path and stay on it. No matter how unprepared I am or no matter how many people I have cheering me on. I am on my own. And the choices I make have to be for me.

2011-04-19T10:15:00.000-06:00

Last night I answered Bryson back.. and I am SO excited!:) Prom is a week from this Saturday and my dress still has not come..which means I do not have anything else ready either! Wish me luck!

Chelsey Nicole Mowen

2011-04-18T11:23:00.000-06:00

So as she has greatly pointed out.. I do not blog about her enough.. and well her being my best friend.. she deserves a special place on my blog. So I decided to make a post that is just dedicated to her! I do not even know where to start.. Chelsey is like my best friend taken to the next level..like almost my boyfriend but not really. We have been through so much and even though I know that there will be more I don't see us ever stop being best friends. Chelsey is my one friend who is always looking out for me and truly wants the best for me. When I need somebody to talk to.. or someone to lift me up it is Chelsey. I really do not think that I can put into words how much she has helped me. She is so strong and watching her face her trials makes me stronger because it gives me hope to overcome anything. And besides all of this deep stuff. She is probably the most classic person that I know.. even though I claim to be funnier and well a lot of her jokes are mine.. I still get a lot of my classicness from her. We can sit around doing nothing and it will still be fun. She is the hit of every party and just watching her interact with my friends is funny. Chelsey is kind of worthless though.. so I have to do a lot of things that are not under her own will.. like if I want her to come somewhere with me.. I have to physically kidnap her.. or if I want to play with her and she is "sleeping" I just break into her house and go wake her up! She gets mad at frist.. but then it ends up being some of the highlights of our friendship. We are probably the two most classic people you willl ever meet. I mean honestly.. who can get away with the best prank ever? Who throws themselves an anniversary party? I could seriously go on for hours. But whenever I am feeling down I know that a Sammy/Chelsey day will make me feel better. Even though we get crap from our other friends because everyone knows that if we had to chose Sammy/Chelsey time over random other friend time. It would DEF be Sammy/Chelsey time.. so sorry timpview haters, that is just how the cookie crumbles. I don't really know where to draw the line on this post.. like it is pretty creepy but just bare with me. Overall pretty much Chelsey is awesome and you should be SUPER jealous of me.. because I have the BEST-best friend EVER. Love you chels!

Park City Spring Break 2011

2011-04-17T12:51:00.001-06:00

This week a few of us girls that were stuck in orem for spring break.. went up to Park City and stayed at kristens time share. The first night was girls night and we went shopping and out to dinner to this cute italian place on mainstreet. We went hot tubbing in a freaking blizzard it was crazy.. and it made me want christmas which is not good for spring break.. The next day we did some more shopping and then the boys came and met up with us. We played games, went to dinner, went hot tubbing it was way fun! I am so glad that I ended up being able to do something!

Catching up

2011-04-13T10:28:00.000-06:00

So i lost my camera so I pretty much jump in whatever pictures I can and wati for them to be uploaded onto FB. So here are some random happenings from this past week. Emilees Fahsion Show, Spirit Bowl, Cierras birthday Lunch

2011-04-12T12:02:00.001-06:00

Love

2011-04-10T23:31:00.000-06:00

I love sunday nights with Emilee Dyer.. she is leaving me for this little place called Los Angeles.. to go find her awesome apartment and tour her awesome school and hang out with her awesome fashion friends... because she is AWEOSME. ....YEP awesome..

2011-04-09T19:37:00.000-06:00

It is 7:39 PM on a saturday night.. and YES I am laying on my living room floor blasting Jayme Dee on my big speakers and screaming at the top of my lungs.. screw therapy.. this is all of the therapy I need! Rolling around the floor screaming music.. best thing ever! And I am sure if some of you saw me right now you would be peeing your pants.. because I am definatly embarassing myself! But that is part of the joy of being home alone. Music is the best therapy, and this is JUST what I need:)

Hair Extentions

2011-04-08T15:48:00.000-06:00

I finally got my hair extentions put in. and I LOVE them!:)

The day has finally come...

2011-04-06T17:55:00.000-06:00

I got asked to prom woo hoo! I am going with Bryson Nickle and I am in a group with all of my friends:) Senior prom is defiantly going to be a night to remember

2011-04-05T18:26:00.001-06:00

So this last weekend was Shayli/Cierras combined birthday party. Here are some pictures..

Coming up this week... all of my spring cleaning, Cierras birthday, Spirit Bowl, Hair Extentions put in, The WEEKEND! East shore, East Shore, Oh and.. East Shore!

The Perfect Man

2011-04-04T07:56:00.001-06:00

So the other day me and Chelsey made a list of all of the things that " The Perfect Man" should aquire. Here is mine... Qualities -Worthy preistood holder -Loves sports ( Watch, Play, Talk about) -Laid back, can joke around and have fun. -Puts me first -Romantic -Treats family well (especially mom and sisters) -Family oriented - Good taste in music - Gentelmen -Strong Testimony -Good tempor -No drug past. ( if so.. has to really be changed) -Good work-ethic -Has goals and ambitions -Loves kids -Makes me feel special AKA: Like the only girl in the world -Can make me laugh. -Supports me with my goals/talents -Spontanious -Knows that I am the one for him from the start.. None of this dating my friends before me crap. -Touchy/PDA AKA:Can't get enough of me:) -Experienced but not to the extreme. -Returned Missionary -Good career -Thoughtful Looks -Cute smile - Blonde hair/blue eyes -Good skin (tan) -Short hair..buzz cut is always solid. -Good hygeine - Good sizer ( bigger than me) Healthy.. does not need to have a ton of muscle. ( teddy bear status) - At least over six foot -Takes his shirt off the hot way... over the shoulders. - Has good style. (Not too trendy) But no tennishoes with jeans.. No sandals -No spikey hair - Good hands and feet -Good teeth -CUTE just plain cute You may think that I am being a tad bit picky.. but you asked for my perfect man.. and well here he is. Latley I feel like people (including me) have been settling for less. But as long as you are the best person you can be.. you should not have to settle for a guy who is not very strong in the church.. but there is hope. Or a guy who gets mad easily.. but you just won't do anything to upset him. I feel like the value of women are going down..and boys are gaining control. I wish sometimes that we lived in the old days and men would pay like a kazillion cows to gain your love.. it showed that you are really worth something. None of this.. I love you.. I love you not. I am sick of all the games and I am ready for the real thing! I mean common boys.. lets grow up! Well anyways the point of this post.. is to remind me especailly to not settle for less or to lower my standards because it sounds fun in the moment.. Hold out for a guy that adores you.. cause he is out there! ..hopefully:)

The Ultimate Prank

2011-04-03T13:40:00.000-06:00

So every april fools I try to pull the most classic pranks on people but their is always that one peson that catches on. Well this year I succeeded more than I expected. Me and chelsey decided to pull on a prank on emilee.. this was the plan... Chelsey calls emilee during the last 5 minutes of school and tells her that I got in a car accident and that she doesn't think that I am going to make it. So emilee starts freaking out and tells chelsey to meet her at her house to drive up to the hospital to come say their "goodbyes" So of course emilee is booking it out of the school panicing and telling everyone "Sammy got in a car accident! They don't know if she is gonna make it!" SO they are all booking it to the car getting ready to meet up with chelsey to go up to the hospital to say goodbye to me. So Chelsey calls paloma and tells her that she is almost to the school to meet up with them. And paloma is BAWLING. They are all freaking out telling EVERYONE. So me and chelsey are driving to the school and I am starting to think that maybe we took this prank a step to far. But there was no turning back.. so I pull up to the school and there is a huge group standing in the middle of the parking lot, a few of them are hugging, paloma is sitting in the middle of the road crying. So I get out of the car and run up to everyone peeing my pants "April fools!" Seriously everyone looks at me and just shook their heads. "Sammy that is not funny!" "Sammy that is so mean!" Of course most of the boys just started laughing and then emilee and paloma get in their car and drive away they were pissed because they just embarassed themselves infront of the whole school. So finally they came back and give me all hugs. Paloma had mascara smeared all over her face and emilees eyes were swollen.. i guess that it is good to know that people care:) But I am pretty sure there is at least ten people out there that still think I am laying in some hospital bed. Because all weekend whenever I would see people their reaction would be.."Sammy! I thought that you were dead!" Hahaha I love april fools. Here is some videos of chelsey breaking the news to emilee..

2011-03-30T09:09:00.001-06:00

Ten things that are making me happy today..

1. Jack Johnson

2.Him

3. Thinking about the past week

4. That I am finally getting my hair done today

5. Emilee, Teal, Cierra and Pj I love our little group we have so much fun

6. Last night

7.My pillow pet

8.That I don't have the craving to eat unhealthy

9.The curiousity of the unknown

10. That I have an awesome day to look forward to